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Today I had to say goodbye to my beloved cat and dog. I'm so sadden by the matter. And feel so disconnected to everyone and everything.
Trying to Understand Myself Life
Spending 5 years with someone is a long time and like anything;takes time for things to happen whether good or bad. And I haven't been happy with myself and where things have been heading. And the year of 2015 hasn't been so great for myself but the ending of last was for we had gotten engaged. Which I've put to the side because I'm not ready. Not in the right mind frame and most of all not happy with myself and much of anything. Sad but true. But this year I haven't been able to catch a break and see mostly negative things than positive. Beginning of the year I was really sick, then fell and hurt myself going into a grocery store, than my kn
I don't know.
It's a beautiful day outside.. And I've just stayed curled up within my bed...With very little ambition of much. Sucks. And my days are so mixed anymore; more than before. Sometimes it just feels like I get so lost inside my own head... But the feeling of being lost is sometimes the only hope to push myself forward. But I just try to remain strong.. but not really for myself.. for my mother and my youngest sister.
I have so many questions that swirl around my mind constantly... And then I just feel engulfed by this sadness that doesn't evaporate and is making me dread the upcoming months and holidays..
But when I don't feel lost in my mind
The Big 15.. dun dun dun
1. How many years have you been on DeviantArt?
Coming up to 6 years at the end of August
2. What does your username mean?
When I made the account I was a huge Cold (band) fan..
3. Describe your yourself in three words.
Dreamer. Curious. Patient.
4. Are you left or right handed?
Right.
5. What was your first deviation?
6. What is your favorite type of art to create?
Currently photography and poetry.
7. If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?
Oil or Watercolor Paintings..
8. What was your first favorite?
9.What type of art do you tend to favorite the most?
Pictures whether photography or something
As in today..
Dear fellow deviants and friends...
I don't know if any will really read this.. But as some know I have been going through difficult times... In a bad means of depression...and honestly tired of trying to really push forward.. but I am in no ways to end. Just need to break away maybe from everything maybe.. So if I disappear from online here.. I'm just trying to find myself because I feel very lost in life right now.
I haven't felt this disconnected in a long time.. and it's a horrible feeling.. and I can't hold on to anything it feels.. and feels I don't know.
I have problems opening up.. along with showing much in emotion..
I just wa
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